2010

It's been a while. So many things have happened since my last post. It would be rather ridiculous if nothing had happened before then. Don't you agree? So, let's try to see what I remember of the year so far.

• I got engaged. Boogie proposed to me February 26, 2010. We've been talking about marriage and such but who'd have thought it would happen this soon? Not that I have complaints or anything. :)
• I got pregnant. Seems that I've been pregnant since December 2009. Boogie was ecstatic! I've never seen him happier. He made such a fuss at the first ultrasound. He was jumping up and down and talking in a very loud obnoxious voice. I cried when I first saw it. It looked like an egg more than anything but there it was. Our precious little baby. Due around September 29 of 2010
  
• I moved in with Boogie's family. Since I was staying by myself it was only logical that I move in with them. Boog's mom was such an angel about it. I remember when Boogie broke the news she ran all over their house yelling 'Grandkid! Grandkid!' at the top of her lungs.
• I got sick a lot. But I suppose that only natural given my condition. I was ordered to absolute bed rest. Who'd have thought I'd be the type to have a sensitive pregnancy?
• Boog and I decided to move to Davao for the remainder of my pregnancy. Manila life was totally stressful, it seems. It was hard to say good-bye to all our friends but we figured that it'll only be 'bye for a little while'. After all, Earl and Kail had promised to come visit after I had given birth. So did a bunch of other people. :)
• A few weeks after we arrived in Davao, I got very, very sick. I was rushed to the hospital. Everything was a blur. I was in isolation most of my stay there. I thought everything was going to be okay...but in the end, our daughter, Magsie, couldn't make it. She was only 6 months in the womb...she looked exactly like her dad. The same eyes and the same nose. But she had my complexion, she was really fair. The family was really a pillar of strength at this time. Seeing Boogie cry over Magsie broke my heart. The day was June 6, 2010 at 10:44 pm.
  
• I'm quite recovered, physically, anyway. The heart will take longer to heal.
  
• I'm torn. We haven't quite decided if we're returning to Manila soon. But Boogie has plans on perhaps returning there and working for a few months if not longer. But we'll cross that bridge when we get to it.
• I get to work again. My bosses have been nice enough to allow me to work from home. I hope they can let me keep at it but I know that it would unreasonable to ask for that.
• I'm still engaged. We've been together since December 2008 and we haven't looked back. ♥

Every single day is a different charm unto itself. I feel like I've changed a lot in the brief 6 months that I've had my Magsie with me. It still hurts to think that she won't be here with me and her dad but we're getting by. Now, Boogie and I do our best of make ourselves into people that she could be proud of. I know in my heart of hearts that I'm changing for the better.

Hey, God? Thanks.