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So as tonight, I'd usually be playing Sims 3 but I wanted something different. Well, not so different since I'm watching Gossip Girl season 2. So anyway, I got to the episode where Nate reconnects with his Kennedy-esque family. It's all ostentatious and all but I find myself a tad jealous. They have family reunions, family games, and other things. They all have issues, of course -- what family doesn't? Yet, its the tradition that they stick to. They commemorate the start of their family and they reminisce on the people that had gone...
And that's where it hits me. It hits quite hard. Who amongst the departed do I remember? Who do I commemorate and miss? I remember as far as my paternal and maternal grandparents yet nothing beyond that. I do not even know if they had brothers or sisters. Well, that's a lie, I do know if they had siblings. Yet, I don't think I've met them. Or if I had, I sincerely do not recall. What I do remember are stories on how they may have been horrible.
My aunt Tish regales me of stories of grand reunions with her clan. She even invited me to go. I turned her down. It would seem so odd to celebrate a family that was not mine. What do I celebrate about my family? Not much. We all hardly talk to each other. Everyone's too busy with their lives and their wealth. Coming from a privileged background, you'd think we'd all have the decency and breeding to stay in touch. Oh well, I suppose that's asking for too much. Although, I still am jealous. I want something like that. I want something stable to fall back on. I want to be certain that I'll be surrounded by smiles and family. I want a noisy breakfast with bickering and jokes and a warm meal.
Is that asking for too much? --That's not whiny or anything; it's a truly heartfelt question.
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Geh. I'm hungry.