Light was sparse in the room that night. The silence weighed heavily upon those within it. A guy and a girl lay upon the bed. Neither of them talking. Neither of them facing each other. They fought again. Angry words were spoken. Pauses filled with unsaid emotion still clung to its occupants, refusing to let go. The girl felt numb. Was it always this way? Will it always be this way? she thought. She tried to summon tears that she knew would make her feel better. They always did. But they failed her today. They never came.
So in the silence and in the darkness, she tried to feel how he was doing. Tried to hear anything. And there it was. The faint yet unmistakable sound of a stifled sob. Ever so slowly she turned to look over her shoulder and saw that his shoulder were shaking. She had done it again. She made him cry.
Carefully she laid on her back, her sorrowful eyes lifted towards the ceiling and pretended to be seeing the dark, starry sky above. Then she started talking in her heart to someone who everyone said would be there. “God, I know that you don’t like hearing my prayers. Or if you do, you never answer them.” She paused to question if she had gone insane, shrugged, then continued.
“We both know that I believe in you even if I act like I don’t. But we both know that he’s always been loyal to you. So if ever you’re going to listen to my prayer..Let it be this one. If there was ever a time you were going to grant me a wish, let it be this…” She glances over at him as he bravely tries to mask his sobs. “Let him find his happiness…I don’t care if it’s not with me. I mean, I’ll care, of course. It’ll hurt a lot. But…he deserves someone who doesn’t make him feel this way. Even if it takes me out of the picture. Let him find his happiness.”
The girl waited for some moments. To see if there would be anything different. There was none. She sighed, prepared to believe that God had once again ignored her. Yet there was a soft whisper in her heart, a warm and calming feeling that came from nowhere. And it spoke to her. “What if I did listen to your prayers and gave you what your wished for? I gave him to you. What if I had already given him his happiness? I gave him, you.”
Tears welled up in her eyes and spilled out. With a smile, she replied to the whisper in her heart. “Then I better treat him a lot better.” She reached out and pulled him into an embrace. “Tell me a wish…” she said. “Whenever we fight and one of us gets hurt like this. The other has to ask the hurt person their wish for the moment and they have to make it come true.” And so they talked, he told her his wishes and she made them come true. She made him happy and in doing so, she realized that he truly was her happiness as well.
We may feel that He never listens or that it’s always up to Him to make this better. But He already gave us everything we need to make things better. All He does is give us a little push.
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